YOU ARE A VICTIM OF YOUR OWN MIND

You know that feeling when you're doing something and out of the blue you realise that your whole existence is useless and that literally everything in your life is going wrong at this point?
You just feel that horrible pain that sets in your head. Your whole body is suddenly so exhausted that you couldn't possibly do anything else but cry, so you do exactly that. You cry so many tears that you could fill a whole lake, a lake full of pain, misery and crushed dreams, hoping that releasing  those feelings out would make you feel just a tiny bit better, but your pain doesn't lessen, no. Not even a bit. As if your current situation isn't sad enough your memory decides that now would be a perfect moment to point out every single embarassing moment and mistake you've ever done. It feels like your own brain would want to make you feel worse.

All this usually ends with you realising that you have no real friends, no love life what so ever, no special talents and that you're gaining only two things: weight and bad grades.
So you set some truly unrealistic goals for your future, like losing an absurd amount of weight and raising your grade in every single subject. You are now hundred percent commited to your 'genious' plan, but it's past midnight, so you promise yourself to start tomorrow morning.

And so the next day comes and you're not holding to your goals at all, and when the night comes again you're filled with regret and sadness, so you set your goals again.
Maybe even a bit higher..

You are basically trapped in a lovely little circle of sorrow, self-destruction and self-pity.

Congratulations, and good luck getting out of it.
xx